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I want a boyfriend.
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Friday, November 30, 2018

Love unto ye end to not die for

Love unto ye end to not die for

Ah, will he forever promise to love made by sex that he has to be in love?

You do understand that you must. Until falling apart by hate that you might not need it by wanting holy value.

So it was something about a man who was straight that believes in a women and marriage. He was so strange you made him in to every promise. Valued in believing keeping women, to be forever with her that so strange all men has to have it.

Did you lie to me. My dear. He day he promised to be fallen by another man. Had it ever been so painful what might have been with women? Did women gave up something? Because I expected him to know what not to ask a woman permission to be in love with another man.

It has always been legal in this world. You just not allowed to ask because you told me love is your job. Don’t ever ask a woman, because she had no job. Did she ever had a job to love you in return that your eyes might see something else you might tell me?

Do not ever come to my country. She or him might not be here. I am to die for but I am promised to everything that is not you. All of them are my uncles who promised me nothing in life. Even in death I might not know his name. Where you ever in love with him? That your people gave me all the message of hate? We are not allowed to tell you anything. Anything you wanted in your world was promised off limit to others.

As you should have always know and make sure others don’t have what you value. She is not us. She is never you. She never promised. She really never promised, I prove to you, the day she let you die and have you turn to another man for answers of true love. He hold you there of what it means having a best friend forever in sex and desire. He have you there. Don’t ever come to ask me in my country. I don’t know his name. Uncle gave me baby birds. I will just have to order extra Chicken on the table.

Uncle bird: “Eat extra bird saliva!”

"Thanks giving man. The other saliva got blood."

"Get that one. Its from the other uncle. He is dead."

///-///

Crime of a Han

Crime of a Han


I know you hate Chinese people for not believing in the word of GOD.

If they just GOD dame love their kid a little bit more and raise them to be able to get a job, this world would not have so many stupid name callings to support illegal immigration and “your kid is stupid”.

Lots of people know but would not stop it. I am not going to stop it as well.

You will like it, if you hate me.

They apply for illegal marriage with other women with full taxation support for the matrimony and their kids to be immigrated to this country.

Their own kid is fucked up so bad in poverty that they believe the virtue of being poor and looks ugly as hell getting government food stamp on their birthday is the best resolution to go.

This children have no taxation support. Their live is just worse than an illegal immigrant. Their parents sign them up to be stupid getting disability money. They couldn’t even earn three thousand dollars per month like a real illegal immigrant.

Five hundred dollar, glory, per month for their kids. They all wanted this contract. If you wanted anything it would not be their parents’. These kids will never be married.

Glories GOD oh holy.

Every body knows this kind of people. No body is going to stop you if you like to call your kid "crazy." You gave birth to them.

To holy Jesus. All the love.

What of a Han? A Hans’only problem is that they will never allowed to return home from the day they where born. Ethnic clan value is that the day you where born you where made to cry for everything but ever return to hell where you came from.

And YOU wanted more Kids for other people and your own human rights, while your very own kid is called crazy idiot.

I know they are all your best buddies. You call them church stupid behind their back.

Happy birthday! Food stamps is all you get.


Ps: Its been hundreds of years you will be stupid to think China doesn't have Church. Get your own Church./// ///

Myth

Myth

I find you to be very strange. Of any thing you like, like a unicorn. You people fantasize creatures that are unacceptable in this world.

People like me get real houses for food except I heard they are not taste... ...

Some kid was watching PBS and it was about a dragon. You know, I though you people have a lot of dragons and the kid just claim that there is only one dragon in this world. How do you know? Why must there be one? Aren’t you people strange?

Creating creatures that don’t exist. Dreaming all of this on popular main stream broadcast and horror movies popular as ever, telling people you are not afraid.

Lots of things gone extinct. You are telling me that you are not afraid with creatures in your dreams.

///-///

ID fight

ID fight

You all might have heard of gay ID sign up sheet. You need one to read gay related books. I have been holding off on gay related issues. Finally gave up and singed up on the book comments so “you” have access right? Don’t sign up for me again.

More over, Your gay right request has approved by Church...all of you suddenly wanted to go for Chinese association...with a lot of things.

What are you running away from in your own country? Your country has a lot of things legal, all for you, in the United States. You are not missing anything in your own country. There are a lot of poor people around for you to boss around.

As for gay people they are making a better living than I am. Don’t sign me up for gay, cause you want free porn. There probably is a message on those books that said “don’t do it”.

///-///

Don’t vote this year 2018

Don’t vote this year 2018

I am not voting this year. They might go to war.

I don’t care. You don’t care. But I am not voting.

We are different. I came from a different country. And you are born here. Lines draw that you will be different in honor. You swear to this country. Allegiance in differences, so you think.

You though I never had allegiance for the country you live in. Never allowed the out spoken word to be heard. I never needed to change because I came in peace.

I am a legal immigrant that is having a hard time looking for a job. I was told that people like me are not valued. So the community decided to not led me have opportunity at all.

If you still think Chinese are still living with bamboos! You are so wrong. I have heard long time ago in the United State that the bamboo forest died in China. That would have been the end of its legacy.

I want my opportunity for my life to be valued by you as who I am only. You let me to be in this country legally. Have you ever heard of “legal immigrates” in the United States?

Oh, I changed my name as you requested for service of Church and now I can not vote because of the name change. The best deal with this name is that no one knows how to pronounce it. (Jose Lin :))

Great name. Worse than a pin-yin name.

I still have the same Church. No need to change because if you are looking for Chinese GOD. Chinese Church is the only place you have to go to get one.

///-///

Nothing!

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Who am I?

Who am I?

I am a Han.

And was told never should have come to the United States because the United States hates Han. Han is a Zhongguoren ethnic clan. Not a lower class or any kind of different religion.

I have Church as religion and just like the other Chinese Church people. It’s Han ethnic clan only. I was told I should never claim Han as well. They were all correct.

I was told that I am crazy by my own family because they are making sure they can do religion practice on me with what ever the stupid Chinese wants. Now the Chinese have religion practice in Chinatown to control the population. I have Church and my family are calling me crazy.

Keep it up stupid government supporting my family making sure I got nothing. Letting religion curse on me. Thinking family is important. The Han is not the same. It usually happen within the family.

Don’t tell me to believe in love. Love is only from GOD to people like me.

Joselin Lam
Ps: Want insurance from me? Go to Kings county clerk office. Other than that no one else can help you. Gay converted and crazy Chinese people you love.

Fin
Hey, fuck head, got English name now.
Ps: I need a boyfriend. Anyone likes me?

///-///

No body cares about killing you

No body cares about killing you

You know the United States is a stupid country. No one, anywhere in the world announced to blow your stupid country up. So what are you talking about at the capital?

I received a suicidal letter telling people not to kill themselves. I think you are sick. What are you up to? You know your kids may not want to join the military force. Tell them don’t go. Times has changed. The recruit goal is not important anymore. Please don’t force them. They like football, just let them do that.

No body wants your country. Because they are all coming into this country to buy grave yard spots.

The investment have a lot of money in it. I don’t know why but they all like it.

At lot of people in New York City are full of infections. No body gets help. I was told because of religion reasons I can not have penicillin shot. The Jewish got all the shots.

I am a Han.

I am not Jewish and will never be, so back off. Jewish can not sign me up to be a Jewish. I read it from a religion book that Chinese people gone crazy for trying to be Jewish.

Now, you know you white boys are voting to be gay corrected right in this country. And some stupid in Chinatown are converting people gay. The city is full of gay approval. Everyone in other cities are showing all the support. Transexual are allowed to join the military force. Your boys don’t want to go, but all the girls want their hands on guns.

Everyone is changing. Homosexual is changing everything. If marriage is so easy, we may not need to fight so many things with war. Just marry your son off for more oil and gold and claim on lands and bank accounts. You know the deal is good.
The “gay” might be true.

Fuck you.
9-26-2018
Fin


///-///

Most Advanced Food Supply

Most Advanced Food Supply

I am a big science fiction fan. When I heard about the most expensive food of the future is poo; and that might be the only thing for us for food supply in the future.

Of all things happened it turn out that the astronaut already using the method to survivor a year in space. It might sound normal but the topic was the food of the future.

The fear was that we might run out of food in the future. The most powerful health food are advanced engineered weeds in the market right now. They look like grass. It was advertised on the expensive menu only. A bucket of expensive weed does not look like higher end cuisine.

So what do we eat? In New York City its twice as expensive so you can imagine why this city is “hell” if you are looking for food. I bought a tray of buffet veggie costed me $13. $8 bought me rotten cooked veggie only. I should have saved up.

I went to all kinds of market for food for being poor and unable to cook where I stay. Not a lot of vegetation selection:

Broccoli is usually old and not fresh,

Peas only comes in frozen,

Corn is never sweet and hard to eat,

Carrot is so bad that all kids hate it for giving them bonny teeth,

Potato - I don’t even know how you eat it,

Tomato has a lot of rotten ones and it's not sweet anymore,

Cabbage comes in too old to be eaten condition,

Celery always the third rated,

Onions comes in a bag always too small in size for the price,

and Spinach don’t even buy it, it's full of dirt.

Where could I go shopping for fresh produce? In super markets.

I imagine the future is bad, when food is bad.

At one time the city was going on lower prices. Everyone was happy. Until the credit cards fucked up because no one wants to pay. So the price for things was up on expensive again. My credit card was fucked up so bad the interest rate is 200%. Because the Chinese in China had free internet access and was trying for free interest rate money. The credit card is gone.

The future for food is not free and not cheap. How bad is it to grow a plant? You wealthy people are eating weeds at home.

Oh, I was looking at pay medical plan. Someone fucked it up screaming they don’t want to pay. So the town is shit again.

Fin ///-///

City of Ghosts

City of Ghosts

In the middle of the dead land where nothing grows - - but if you understand there might be ghosts there might be changes and growth...

If ... you know ghosts will be there...

The news is for them to find out about my place, so they can come here and make their wishes.

Now you all know anyone can make wishes; just some people don’t do it; you will never need to mind them. They know what it means.

Now for the ghosts to find out where I am and come to me. The city will give them what they wanted.
My name is “I”. I do really give myself the funny name. You will like it as well; if you need to find me. You will need to know it.

I came here in the summer and have the house built. Really simple. Three steps to the door, choose left or right to enter.

It’s open door access.

I, ghost city.

Ps: Remembered by the visit to bbg’s desert room.

///-///

Armory

Armory

Where in darkness hand helding blood, desire of protection solemn to your self. Where did you keep it? Whom did you promise?

Did they ever know? What evil are for?

Telling all the evil, advising all the sin, do they know to whom they are for? Blood lasting evil promise of protection, to kill and offering hate, the gift.

They all glorify. Do they all know? Still to know after death what they are for? Crying , screaming , dying , of hate!

Two dragons of posting sides. Eyeing for what will fall in love in known memories. If you might forgot one day, one day might you return to see again.

The eyes were not for you, please there is no need to take them. Someone will be in waiting for what love might promise what to remember.

LGL////

Stupid Whiteboy

Stupid Whiteboy

I have heard some of you white boys like Chinese ugly girls and some of you went to service in war but died.

We all heard people die in war for some reasons.

Some of you don’t want to go to war any more, and some of you think you need to leave this country.

I know you don’t like this country. I don’t like it anyway too. It’s supposed to be your country. I was told to leave this country because I was too young to work a job to pay you. I was never educated because I don’t have money to pay for ESL classes. I never really got a job, was told that I am too ugly to get married and don’t ever needed friends. You all have GOD so do everyone else. Telling people to service GOD but all of you have to make the payment. No pay no help, where ever you go, because noone wants you to exists.

I was told you will not help me and still was being told to get a job and still is too ugly to get a job.
All those doctors will be making sure I got nothing. Soon lot more people will have sexually transmitted disease because they are ugly. You wanted to be protected? Why don’t you pay for your own fucking piece of shit where ever you go. You people do nothing for anyone all those gay people are going to spraying women for husband all over the world.

I will never want your existence, go die in you own grave yard.

Pay the money on your own, gay freezbe.///-///

Publishing a book? I am not here to inspire you in science fiction

Publishing a book? I am not here to inspire you in science fiction

Not my dream. I just have to do something.

No one does homosexual books like you. Heterosexual people have no protection against anything including being poor.

What do you want me to say what dreams are for!

You can dream and wake up remembering that you are too old. I am getting older but still looks for a boyfriend in love to say. Dreams are not for love. They are making sure of me to be ugly out of their or everyone’s life. They all wanted gay life. Selecting some people out to be fucked up and ugly and poor. Thinking those all can die out of everything for love. Trying to fake all the nice to me. Telling me to eat it up for keeping ugly’s look.

If you want gay life, why don’t you make the wish on your own? If gay sex is too much, for the love of life, die on your own. No one wanted to love you! All too busy being poor as hell and you think they are straight.

A boy making promises that he wants to be the only boy in the world for all the money! I can tell you that he will have to be on his own for the rest of his life. Because it worked. Love really are not for girls. They make wishes to the stars that no girls will exists. Can you understand how bad they killed those baby girls and happy about it screaming don’t have to be poor with her and making sure she feels the pain of being a girl that does not have anything and all the advertising in the world telling you its horrible for her to get a job because she will be rapped for being a girl who wants a job.
Finally it is right to be gay and right to kill babies you don’t want, in more countries. No more say of what can not be done. Including anyone to be dead out of my life. If you know how I look like. For all the likes in the world, lots of you don’t like it. Making sure I have nothing but ugly to keep for the mother that feed me nail fungus for food. Making sure I have no health insurance. Telling people five dollar insurance is too much to pay. I really don’t have your health insurance and never will because you have more money to keep it up making sure more people can not have your insurance ever.

I don’t need to see your doctors. 35 dollars pay for nothing including no treatments. The doctors took the money and never any help. No one ever wanted to pay the 20 dollars for strange credit card reasons - - they are too wealthy.

For love, turn around and leave forever.

JL / black and white that pays in green the path of money /////////////////

Uncle’s fucking love life against bunny

Uncle’s fucking love life against bunny



Now you know that you are gay and it ain’t free and all. Been selling things??? You know why us kids all know what money is for. Love is not cheap. You and your husband.

I would be wrong to say “now you know” but you should have said it. “We are not allowed to watch”.

Fuck, you know. Us people who are poor are not the same kin typed like you. Not allowed at boy-doom with guns against your life.

You been eating dead baby girls and all and we have always been hungry. Still hungry. There is no food in the family.

I have you know bunny will never be here. The one we eat. You hate those man. Gave us the wrong bunny for food, always.

“Money” uncle is good. Bunny cost 10Billion for two. But you will know the pain too. You don’t want them. They cursed you out of love. We always love them and eat them. You will never need them. Don’t you know? They were expected to have many babies I guess you decided to kill them all.
Every winter. Every gift will never be send to you. You know us kindred soul making it sleepy with food for us only. You wanted love making with romantica with Julia with pants. Bunny will forever be out with you. No sham in selling you out over here. They are all freaken gay and you are just not into it and left for someone else.

We can have bunny away from you. Far away. Mars moon light will not burn you with Apollo. They are going to space again. But bunny will not afford you in millions on the other side. Where blood has hated against every thing what money can have no tell tale with bunnies eye colors. I am sure you heard of. They are all not to your liking.

You gay are! Some people can not have rights to hate you because you want them dead. Real blood related uncles do the same. What do you think of what eyes behold? When no one is allowed for any thing against your kin.

Where there are bunny’s there might be people be dead out of your life. If all it takes is for bunny to be with me and there will never be you ever. True be told of sex. Why don’t you die on your own. Eating little girls for joy and sex. Having fun ugly name calling your sorry life son of the bitches. They are all loving you. You are priceless gay calculated to worth more money than bunny can help against your taste cutting off their heads.

Bunny ears, there were four of them running away. Been told they will be dead at the gate. Story ended with all the bunnies gone overnight.

Wai n/a

Memory of you — who?

Memory of you — who?


Today, if you remember yourself! Its you. I did not go. Sky is all clouded for you to be loved. I will not be there. You can see it all on your own. Where ever you like.

Looking to look good. Leaving all the request for all the money in the world. I can not have a thing. You will not receive a gift today.

It is strange. The homeless is still on the street. Covered up by the cloud so you don’t feel bad and see the truth of whats expected of them. They might not need you and you don’t need them.

I was told of them and told them myself out of help and homeless. Good luck fellow with $one.

Bought coffee. $one. It wasn’t too hot. Not sharing with you or them. Where on Earth did anyone asked you to see anything? Best Buy has big discount but you know what I mean; $one. News.

It wasn’t big news, no one said a word against anything. Siting around where you don’t need to see them. All pretending to work it out for the day; going around asking about opportunity; calling others making requests; and explaining where about needed informing. What people would have to do today; without telling you all the demand they have from you.

What people would do - - - the art of not telling. Memory without you. Happy holiday. 5-28-2018///

I called // In memory of someone else// walked away in memory of what it was///

Write...more...on what am I writing

Write...more...on what am I writing


I write stupid things. I am not here to inspire you. I hope you don’t do the same thing. I though things would turn out differently for you, but I guess not. If you are reading this.

Guess...

I though with all the information given. Everyone should be able to get through it and have someone to help them. If you know what I mean.

Been to the black community museum today and saw the books they have. Inspired. Donated a dollar in hope that poor people like me can get help. Everyone.

If the only thing you can do is give birth to a kid and raise them to be somebody. I think you know what I mean when my very own parents wanted me to be fucked up with pills so bad without marriage and child calling me crazy and ugly everyday so they get free money from the government.

Calls it a great American revenge to their Chinese government. Chinese is a piece of shit to the black people who did the black rights movement.

Chinese people in this country have no motto.

The only thing they want is cheap money.

When your own parent don’t even want you to have anything. There is no one there to help any of you. Its like, GOD insist on family value.

I wanted my own opportunity. Happy mother’s day to all the stupid mothers that no one will ever want.

Mothers wanted you to have nothing. You will be happy never to have them ever again.

Wai n/a

Calling --- (comic book writing)

Calling ---  (comic book writing)


Call voice: Police officer! I need to get married!

Police: Is this an emergency?

Call voice: Some doctor whore hole calling 911 reporting crazy bitch is "not a virgin".

Police: Is this an emergency? do you need help?

Call voice: She doesn't want to work, double charged me for her own acne cream? I lost my ID.

Police: Do you need help?

Call voice: I am, like, lost my ID! They are trying to transfer my MTA card to be used in Shanghai. Can you identify me without 911 payment? Beep----

Yellow for running away Goldilocks.

(This is what I wrote after reading a children's book:).

Writing for what?

Writing for what?


I am trying to write.

Expressing my ideas. Ideas that might not be happy, a bit stupid, on smart people who have made it but why am I not going to make it. The Chinese elders always claim people who are born in this country are useless.

They always voting to support illegal immigration. Their own children are being voted out of all community support.

What is the idea of claiming that your own children are useless?

This happens a lot in the Chinese community.

Maybe you have heard of them all!


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Your religion - that - no one is going to tell you about

I can not tell you what it means by GOD. Except that all our people have religion. Just you don’t understand that no body wants your DNA. Truth be told.

Why couldn’t you understand that when a child is born they are all on their own with their own DNA, freedom, self, and wealth.

Things that their father gave them that their mother can not take away.

You don’t understand that you don’t like it.

But with your GOD, you take away every thing they have by the order of law. Screaming by your GOD's power. Demand GOD to curse people.

You stupid women wanted people to talk about religion—no one will. And no one will and you pretend to be ESOL and think that people don’t understand. You understand? ”on one will”. No one even wants your DNA. Do you understand what it means!? If they ever reply you?

It was on the Chinese news that some European were looking to sue China by illegal claim of European DNA. The hell you are dreaming of China's RMB ownership.

W///

Boy peach, boy cherry, boy plum

Boy Peach

Black peach’s punishable crime is love. Every New Year, unmarried young men and women all wanted peach charm. Everyone buys a branch of peach blossom. Cut! For someone else’s love you will have to be in pain? You would in return offer them the same!



Boy Cherry

Black cherry is gorgeous because of its blood line. Some people claim that there are dead bodies buried under the most colorful cherry trees. Who place the dead under the tree! Who would recognized cruelty as beautiful?


Boy plum

Black plum is hurt by hate. It blooms in winter. Either its too early or too late in blossom. Don’t you hate the season it choose to bloom? Is waiting hope or just so that you will give up forever?


Boy end!

What do you buy at a Chinese porcelian shop?

In recent years, the Chinese community has opened up a lot of porcelain shops. One street might have two or three of those shops opened up next to each other near by. I some times pass by those shops and saw the display and have no idea what they are selling? I don’t know how those items are used. They have strange shapes that don’t seem to be useful. Many white people and black people always ask Chinese people what are their religion? and why don’t they practice their religion in this country? More likely, I think a lot of people have no idea how Chinese people educate their children. Because a lot of American born Chinese don’t even know anything about Chinese culture and most of the time they are Church members that do not practice Chinese religion.


It has been a while since Chinese New Year has gone by. I realize the porcelain shop might be doing New Year sale on flower vases. The Chinese community certainly do not advertise on buying flower vases for New Year flowers… A lot of things the Chinese community just don’t advertise. I missed the flower sale for 2018.


Ask about Chinese religion


If you ask any Chinese older people about religious practice. They would just say something like you are Chinese or just tell you to eat your food. This is their way of Chinese religion practice. Doaism, the way of the daily living of a Chinese.


Eat Chinese food


Many none Chinese people always wonder what Chinese is all about. People live in New York City all their lives still can claim they don’t know anything about Chinese food. With New York City under massive reconstruction. A lot of the good buffets that serve good vegetables are gone. The City community are still under heavy meat favor. Chinese food once again faces redesign into meat favor.


Speak English


I am not embarrassed by some of the Chinese people saying “I don’t know English” to stay away from speaking English. Except I have to claim that “I am not a Chinese” in order to speak English.

What does it take to be a police officer?

I don’t see the police walking around everyday. Only once a while. A far away glance of their car on the street passing by.

It was on the news that a police officer was killed by intention. Everybody was angry. After that the homeless were back on the street. The case with the homeless is not the police’s fault because they do not do free housing.

The passerby always called 911 to report homeless. The city notice the problem and began to advertise dedicated phone number to call to report homeless instead of 911. So don't call 911. They are not going to get help.

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I am relearning how to write...something else... most likely not here to inspire you ... because we all  have hate. I forgot how I was born. Telling me to listen to songs of angles. Why do you Americans tell me I don't have Chinese Church? It has been hundreds of years of Chinese Church. You want to fight? Against poor people who wants to live? No body ever do anything about "why Chinese people go to Church" because it has been too long for you to stop it. The Church is not your Church and it is not in your country.


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